rocky, mushrooms, and onions

today was a lazy saturday. i woke up, went to the coffee shop and was planning on going to the lake but had to rush back to the apartment for various reasons. needless to say, i didn't make it to the lake. so, i turned on the tv and what was on? ROCKY!!! a rocky marathon all day! this brightened my day. so what did i do all day? i was parked on the couch. didn't move except for occasionally letting chase face out on the porch to eat or bark at the passing dogs.

i started getting hungry this evening so i called my good friend deana marie. we decided to go to crazy fire. it's this restaurant where you get a bowl, put your raw meat, vegetables, and blended sauces in it then the chefs cook it all together on this huge round stove. don't know the word for that. so i'm sure you all know what i'm referring to. the thing i hate about these restaurants are the little bowls they give you. i was thinking you get charged for every bowl you get so i thought this time i would pile as much food on mine as i could. i started with the meat. for those who don't know me very well, i crave meat. yes it sounds barbaric but i do. i got some chicken, beef, sausage, calamari, scallops, and crab meat. surprisingly, i bipassed the ham! whoa! then i added some noodles. by this time my bowl was already about to overflow but i really really really wanted some mushrooms and onions. i got the mushrooms packed on there but the onions kept falling. i finally got the onions strategically placed on top of the noodles so they would stay balanced and not fall. i slowly walked over to the sauces where deana was. she was all "good Lord amanda! that's about to fall!" i laughed. then it happened. i reached for the garlic oil and all my onions and mushrooms toppled off and landed sporadically in all the sauces. deana immediately bursts out laughing and yelling, "i gotta pee, i gotta pee!" i on the other hand quietly say, "oops" then walk over and put more mushrooms and onions on top of my bowl as they keep falling into the other vegetables. the lady who was refilling the trays of food completely stopped and stared at me as if she wanted to say some sarcastic comment. instead of waiting for that comment, I proceeded to say, "don't worry i'll get those" as i steadied my hand with the bowl and reached for all the onions i spilt so i could throw them away. i wanted to laugh so hard but i knew that bowl of food would end up everywhere. talk about self control! i finally made it over to the counter where i slowly placed my food so nothing would fall. the people around just stared because i realized then i was able to use 2 bowls. then the chef came around and he obviously didn't care about my mushrooms and onions or what i had been through to get them on there because he came by and jerked that bowl right up and i swear i probably lost half of my food just in that swift motion! dinner turned out delicious and i have no regrets.

baby steps

I woke up this morning thinking today is a new day. Things are going to be different. Did they turn out to be different? Yes in some ways they did. This past week, I've been down. I guess in a slump. Wondering what's going on with me. What is God saying to me? Where is He taking me? Why is He reaching deep down in me tearing me inside out? What is my next step? Why can I not overcome obstacles in my life that seem to break me down and bring me to shame every day? Well, He wants something from me. He wants me. All of me. He wants to take those obstacles that make me stumble and bring me shame to replace them with Him. All of Him. Have I surrendered all of those obstacles to Him? Yes I have. Are they going to go away all of a sudden? No. It is a process of healing and restoration. He desires to take my brokeness and turn it into something beautiful. That brings me to tears just thinking about it. WOW! The God of this universe has chosen me to save, to love, to break down, to humble, to weed out, to build back up and to make beautiful!

I discovered today that God is moving me into the next phase of my life. Not sure where all it is taking me but I know atleast part of what it involves. Did I make steps towards the change that He's doing inside of me right now? Yes I did. I guess you could say it's baby steps. No the obstacles are not fully gone but the baby steps towards progress have began to take place. I hope that soon I can trust Him completely to take giant steps so that I can dive in to Him without anything holding me back.

caught in the act

at approximately 9:00 am i was working and received a pix message on my phone from my dear friend and roommate. i thought oh what could this be? i clicked open and there he was! chase was lying up on the couch wrapped in my warm fuzzy blanket with his head propped up on stef's pillow. WOW he had been caught, discovered! i cannot come to his defense anymore when stef gripes about how chase's hair somehow always gets up that far on the couch! no chase, i love you but you are guilty this time bud.

so it begins...

Well, I would first like to start out by saying I am not a writer by any means. I cannot sing, I cannot play a musical instrument, I cannot draw, I cannot paint, and I cannot write. I guess you could say I am not creative at all. Most who know me will agree. I guess you could ask, does she have any special talents or gifts? But don't let that fool you because my imagination is unstoppable and THAT is where my creativity comes in to play! I can also spell. Does that count? I was driving down the road the other day thinking about how if God knows I love music and I love to write then why can I not be good at them? maybe one of them? I love to write my thoughts down even though they make no sense sometimes. My mind goes from one thought to the other so quick that I don't let anything process. Then I have to analyze it all for it to make sense. So since that day when I thought that, I have discovered that no I might not be able to sing and I might not be able to write but I can talk! This is what I am good at! This will be used for my future! So for those of you who actually read this, please accept the fact that as my mind wanders, my fingers go with those thoughts so there is no telling what could end up on these pages. I hope this blog is something you enjoy reading. I hope to be able to truly express my thoughts and feelings on here. I hope to be able to take the most mundane stories and turn them into gold winning stories that you can laugh for several minutes over.

and so it begins... you are going to experience the uncensored, uncut life of Amanda Parsons.