Seeing, Understanding, and Changing

As I sit here and think, I am so amazed by God's love for me and His faithfulness. I cannot get over how He is moving in my heart and in my life. I have prayed for a more intimate relationship with Him and a deeper understanding of who He is. I have prayed this for so long. I finally figured out how to go about doing this. First, it takes time. Second, it requires me to be disciplined. To get in the Bible, pray constantly and meditate on Him each day consistently. It seems so hard at first. To think, seriously, how can one think about God all the time? It seems boring. But, I have discovered new life. I have discovered God is not boring. He has shown me things that I would have never seen before if I was not keeping my eyes on Him. It was a challenge for me to really dive in to the Word because I was afraid I would not get anything out of it. I was afraid that He would not come through for me like He does everyone else. But, I did not listen to those thoughts. I believed that if I went to Him with everything that I am, He would meet me and be faithful. Over the past few weeks, every day I learn something new. Whether it is about myself, about Him, about a promise He has promised me or something that is not spriritually related at all, I am learning new things. He is opening my eyes to see things I have never seen before. Sometimes it hurts and is painful. Especially to see my flaws and weaknesses. But that is what I want to see. He is answering my prayers by changing me on the inside and outside. It excites me to know that I am developing a closer walk with God- the Creator of the universe! He is so big, great, powerful, and sovereign yet He chooses every day to be with me because He loves me that much. Life doesn't get sweeter than that. "Many are called but few are chosen." I am chosen by God and so grateful. I will run this race no matter how narrow, long or difficult the road of life is. As long as I abide in Him and keep my eyes fixated on Jesus Christ, I will make it and get to where I am going.